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Saturday, January 23, 2010

Sniff... oh whoa is me...sniff

After all the renos have been done and now I can stop to relax, guess what? I have crashed. My eldest suggested that I should have taken more breaks. She is so smart sometimes. Alas, I did not, knowing that the longer I took to complete said project, the longer I had to deal with the chaos in my living room. So now the living room is complete, but I have a cold. Lovely. Sniffle... A pile of Kleenexes sit beside me and I have been slathering on chapstick, as I was a bit of a mouth breather last night. Pretty picture, I know. So I am going to regale you with something a friend posted on her blog. Here we go...

1. What is your current obsession?
just coming out of a renovation obsession :) Other than that, it is blogland

2. What are you wearing today?
jeans and a comfy red striped hooded sweater. Not feeling overly glamorous today sniffle

3. What’s for dinner?
it was supposed to be the Mandarin for a bday dinner, but I think I have been bumped for being a contaminated soul :(

4. What’s the last thing you bought?
a birthday present for Miss Ella's birthday - No, wait! gas and a car wash! Gotta love car washes. they are fun!!

5. What are you listening to right now?
I can faintly hear Treehouse from the basement - perhaps Dora?

6. What do you think about the person who tagged you?
she has a great sense of humour and needs to believe in herself more. I do!

7. If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be?
I kind of like my neighbourhood right now, as my neighbours are absolutely wonderful, but I wish we were closer to the ocean or some other large body of water

8. What are your must-have pieces for summer?
sandals and tank tops

9. If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?
South Africa to go visit with relatives and soak up some sun

10. Which language do you want to learn?
hmm, maybe Spanish or a little more french

11. What’s your favourite quote?
I don't really have a favourite quote, but loving kindness is pretty special. How about a metta meditation;
   May I be filled with loving kindness
   May I be peaceful and at ease
   May I be safe from inner and outer harm
   May I be happy, joyfully caring for myself and others

12. Who do you want to meet right now?
the Buckley's man or Fisherman's friend dude

13. What is your favourite colour?
I love red (burgundy really), but also try to appreciate other colours for their strengths (blue -cooling, peace; green - healing; white -peace, healing; purple - higher consciousness)

14. Give us 3 styling tips that work for you.
-get a hairstyle that fits your lifestyle and the time that you are willing to offer it (kid friendly!)
-dress to make yourself feel good about yourself. When you feel happy and confident, others will see that too
-ummh round brush?

15. What is your dream job?
Tempting to steal This is an easy one! A writer. yup, gonna do it

16. What’s your favorite magazine?
err I get National Geographic and used to get Martha Stewart Living (which I really liked, but don't tell my aunt), but I also like Yoga

17. If you had $100 now, what would you spend it on?
me :), probably not, but I can dream about lobster, king crab....mmmm

18. What do you consider a fashion faux pas?
nasty track pants

19. Who according to you is the most over-rated style icon?
don't follow style icons really

20. What kind of haircut do you prefer?
short, edgy, trying not to be to Mommy-ish

21. What are you going to do after this?
maybe see what kind of mess the kids have created in the basement

22. What are your favourite movies?
don't really have a favourite -like PS I Love You & Lord of the Ring Trilogies

23. What inspires you?
friends, my kids

24. What do your friends call you most commonly?
not Mommy blissfully...

25. Would you prefer coffee or tea?
coffee usually, but this morning I had an herbal tea for my sniffles (am I milking it yet?)

26. What do you do when you are feeling low or terribly depressed?
write, cry, go for walks near running water if I can find it

27. What makes you go wild?
can't think the last time I went wild

28. Which other blogs do you love visiting?
http://promiseorthreat.blogspot.com/ - for reality
http://laura-take2.blogspot.com/ -for pics
http://www.ratherbeblogging.com/ - for laughs
http://gardenmama.typepad.com/my_weblog/ - for crafts

29. Favorite Dessert/Sweet?
I love pie. Any kind of pie. I LOVE pie

30. How many tabs are turned on in your browser right now?
three at present

31. Favorite Season?
probably summer, as I can go swimming then (and gardening)

32. If I come to your house now, what would u cook for me?
soup, maybe Mr Noodles :) feeling the need for comfort food

33. What is the right way to avoid people who purposefully hurt you?
try to not see them in your daily life I suppose

34. What are you afraid of the most?
Have to second the notion here;
Something bad happening to one of my kids.

35. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
yup, cracked dry lips. Definitely a mouth breather last night. sigh...

36. What brings a smile on your face instantly?
hugs, especially from my girls

37. A word that you say a lot?
"Eat!", "Stop!"

38. What would you do if you were made President for one day?
I have enough problems being Lord and Master of my house let alone having the responsibility of a country

39. What is that one thing that keeps you going?
My children wake me up in the morning and put a smile on my face when I kiss them to bed at night. Everything in between is just to get me to these points

40. What word drives you crazy when you hear it?
"help" - Not because I mind helping, but when there is no effort put into something on their own behalf.

And now I have a little girl who has been very patient and wants to play a game on the computer. So, consider yourself tagged! Please take a stab at these questions on your own blog. Post a comment letting me know if you do, I'll want to come and see how your answers compare to mine!

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Growing through love

It is Tuesday evening. I enjoyed a lovely roast beastie dinner this evening with friends. The kids all ate well and got properly spun out by their dessert of chocolate and mini cinnamon rolls. I relished playing the role of sophisticate sipping red wine and discussing classic children's literature, homeless people and whatnot stuff. We laughed and socialized. I felt normal. I am a part of the world. I even worked today. My "job" is not one I had ever really visualized myself in, but I am thoroughly enjoying the experience of being an artist's apprentice/assistant if you will. How novel! How bohemian. How truly me. I also attended the second meeting of my new book club last night. Again feeling tres sophistice discussing the merit of a piece of literature (actually it was agreed that the novel we read was not a favourite amongst us and the author was not overly respected) We drank wine and ate cheese, crackers and truffles. We pontificated on relationships with Mothers and how that changes over time. All very real world. All lovely experiences that I am thoroughly enjoying. All things I could never have dreamt of doing two years ago.

My world is a constantly evolving thing that I am enjoying more every day. While I would love to have Brad at my side to watch our children laugh and grow, that reality is not something that I can reach out and touch. While my Brad is still very real and walks with me daily, he is not something that I can curl up to in bed. He still offers me more love than I could imagine and much insight into life, he can never again watch the kids so I can run to the store for milk or mushrooms. Whatever figures creep into my world might offer a warm spot in bed for a moment, but the bed is mine alone. I hesitate to offer me for fear of hurting me, my girls and the reality that I still am trying to figure out and settle in. I crave someone to help hold the reins of life, but cannot help the critical eye I cast on candidates. Not good enough for the girls, or Brad, or worse ME? Truthfully I still don't hold myself high enough just yet to trust instincts and old flames. I want someone to be by my side and be perfect, but know that will never be. Not right now. Maybe not ever, but I doubt that. In my heart, I feel that a more deserving soul will walk upon my path some day and we will smile on each other. I do feel that. Maybe I have read too many fairy tales, but I think it is more the love that I have been honoured to be showered with over the last two years. I know Brad will always walk with me, but I suspect that he is ready to step aside when I am ready to love myself enough to walk with someone else. Beautiful soul. Thank you